I’m feeling better today. Stomach is actually feeling good and energy is better than yesterday. Pumpkin at dinner seems to be doing well. I was really hungry at breakfast and craving salty foods. My hubby was making SCD legal bacon, which I hadn’t eaten yet. It looked and smelled so good that I had 2 pieces and seems that all was good.
I got tired after walking the dogs and since it’s Saturday, I took a quick 20 minute nap which really helped my mood and energy even more. I was able to do Pilates and run some errands without being wiped out.
This rollercoaster of feeling good one day and not good the next is a difficult one. Practicing mindfulness and gratitude is the only way to survive this ride without going nuts. I’m working on appreciating the moment and being thankful for what I have. This is a skill that has to be practiced on a daily and hourly basis because it’s very easy to get stuck in the past with the “I wish I still had” or in the future with “I hope it will be”. I must remember that all the work I’m doing is resulting in overall improvements even if I can’t feel it at the moment.
I’m learning from what my body is telling me and know that it’s not working against me, it’s got my best interest at heart. Even though I my body may be in pain, it’s only trying to protect me, to keep me alive and moving forward. Slowing down my thyroid which makes me tired is my body’s way of conserving energy that it doesn’t have because of nutrient deficiencies.
I often think of it as a negative thing but when I stop and am mindful of how amazing the systems of our bodies work I’m able to see how my body is protecting me. If it let me do all the things I think I should do I would injure myself. My tissues don’t have the raw ingredients they need to function properly. Making them work more would only injure them. It’s like using your brakes on your car when the brake pads are worn out. The car will stop but you are damaging the metal on the rotors which will eventually break.
Being reflective like this is so much easier on days where I feel well. When I’m in pain it’s hard to see the light because it seems like there’s only darkness. That is something I commit to working on more, of taking a breath and remembering this is just a moment in time. Change is constant. As my guru says, this life is all just an illusion. Don’t attach to things. Know that change will happen. It’s all about the story that we tell ourselves.
So food wise after 26 days I’m kind of used to pureed foods. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t wait to eat more solid foods, but for right now this is what feels good. It’s also simple. I don’t have to think too much about what to cook or shop for. I don’t have to get fancy. In this moment, simple is good.
Pre breakfast-2 tbsp collagen and colostrum
Breakfast-2 slices bacon, chicken, carrots ½ banana and acorn squash
Lunch-Chicken, carrots and acorn squash
Snack-carrots and turkey slices
Dinner-rockfish filets, pumpkin and carrots